happy

Dear baby,

Today has been a tough day for your mama. Sometimes I wonder what I would do without your papa bear here to keep me so strong! I know one day you will think the same.. His arms will be one of your favorite places to sleep, just like they are mine, and any time you need to cry they will be there to wrap around you. From your first scraped knee to your first heartbreak, your daddy will always be there to kiss away the tears and make you smile again.

Your papa told me something today that I will always remember. He was wiping away my tears and he said me that we will never be perfect parents.  He told me that you will never always like us, that one day you will probably even try to run away! But, he said, we will do our best and that is all we should ever ask of each other -- just to be the best that we can possibly be.

We aren't perfect. Your daddy and I have not had a fairy tale wedding. We don't own our own home with a white picket fence,  there's always dirty dishes to be cleaned, and we only make the bed right before jumping into it. But we don't need these things to give you the world. We have made our apartment a little home, with pictures of your ultrasounds already decorating every room. We would rather sit together on the couch and feel your so-strong kicks than rush to do the dishes, and one day soon enough you will appreciate crawling into our messy unmade bed with us, even when we can't find half the pillows because they are buried under a mountain of blankets. We will all cuddle together in bed, even the puppy dog, and we will tell jokes and tickle each other's feet with our own, smile and laugh and sometimes even cry together. We will never be perfect, but we will be happy.

And in the end that's all that matters.

xoxo,
mama bird