There are days where I am pretty much the only one home and for some reason it's those days that Emmy seems to be the crankiest. Today has been one of those days. From the moment she got up she has not been able to figure out what she wants or what would make her happy.. And it doesn't help mama when we were up every hour from 4 am. We even walked down to the park and I ate my lunch while she rolled around on the blanket and put her feet in the grass but it was still hard work to make her smile.
That is a baby that you do NOT want to mess with.
I find myself losing my patience easier on days like today. I don't blame myself, spending eight hours trying to calm a screaming, fussy baby is enough to make anyone want to pull their hair out. I make myself take a step back and just breathe. Sometimes I have to remind myself that she's crying for some reason, not just to annoy or frustrate me, and soon there will be days where she can tell me everything that's wrong and more.
I'd love to know what other mamas do when their sanity is thinning and there's no break from baby. Especially at this young age! Our walk down to the park was definitely some good cool down time for the both of us, and now that she's sleeping in my arms I'm soaking up every quiet, loving second.
Ah, yes. I've definitely had days like this! Especially in the beginning. I think I had a really hard time adjusting to motherhood for a really long while. It was so easy to lose my patience. Zak was always very supportive and loving when that happened and eager to help out. I'm sure your man is the same. Even now, sometimes I snap and say things like "Geez Odin! Why can't you just go to sleep?!" but I say it in such an angry voice and I immediately feel so guilty. I feel like the immediate recognition that this is not the parent I want to be as made it so that it happens less and less. I've given way to Odin and follow his lead. I try to really throughly enjoy the good days and do all I can on the bad days knowing that the next day will most likely be much better! Support system is key. Asking other mamas if this is normal. Even when I knew that a week of a cranky baby meant growth spurt or new tooth, it helped me so much to just hear a few other moms say "yes. it's totally normal!"
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